:-(

He is having surgery tomorrow to remove a tumor from his chest.

I hope he makes it through.

I don't know what I will do if he doesn't :(

My poor poor Bandit.

Soooooooo I have not updated in like 2 months. Mostly because I have been so busy with school and my personal life. Yay me?

I have one more month of school left. I have been dying to get a summer job....which totally isn't working out...thank you crappy economy.

I have an 'interview' Wednesday with Kelly Services Substitute people. Basically I am going to be a sub for them only they need my paperwork and make sure I am not a pedophile. You know since I am going to be working with kids and all. I love how the New Haven area schools outsource their substitutes.

Is it ok for me to say I am soooooo done with school? And that I am dreading going back for a Masters?

I feel like I am overqualified for many things lately....maybe I am just cocky?

I Digress...

The Little Mermaid. I haven't watched it in years!! I was in Walmart a few months ago and saw it came out on DVD and I almost bought it. ;-)

I stare in a relative strait manner at the teacher, without making eye contact with the teacher every now and then so it 'looks' like I am relatively engaged in the class. I think proceed to doodle and or come up with random things to write about that are nowhere near relavent to the topic we are discussing.

Now if my students ever do this someday I will be pretty pissed ;)

I would buy me and Fred a house. Then buy Mary and her family a house. I would probably get Fred his BMW M5 that he wants so badly. I'd buy me and my brother new cars. I would save a bunch of it (I wouldn't invest it till the market got better). I would buy my parents the condo that they want so badly. I would also give them money so they could do early retirement. Buy my dog like a million pig ears. I would donate some money to charity. I can't think of anything else right now.

Yes I did on purpose leave my sister out. She doesn't deserve anything at this point.

Dear Livejournal,

I met some chick in my class yesterday that knew what GIS was. They actually said G.I.S and not Jizz.

I feel a little less weird in this world now.

That's all.

Well I will say that my boy did good yesterday. He gave me the best Valentine's Day I've ever had :)...and I am really not that big of a fan of the holiday. Fred got me this sweet, lovey from the heart card with a dozen red roses, then he took me out to this really expensive restaurant (well, expensive by my standards...I mean he dropped $110 w/out tip for both of us). Then we came back to his place and drank some champagne and cuddle the rest of the night :). I would say yes indeed it was a perfect night :-D.

I got Fred some of his favorite candy, I baked him his favorite brownies (the ones that have Reese's Pieces in em, his favorite candy), I made him this scrapbook kind of picture thing of us and framed it for him and I got him a personalized pocket knife.

Let's see as for regular life, I have been wicked busy with school, work and yes going to the gym. I think this weekend might be the first time in a month I have been able to just chill and relax and not have to worry about anything being due and such.

Tara came home yesterday for one day to get some blood work done for her surgery that is coming up in March. I felt bad because my parents couldn't make plans for Valentines Day because they had to drive her back yesterday, and my dad is one of those romantic men that love the holiday cause they can go all out and have an excuse. I just wish my sister wasn't such a selfish bitch.

Oh and she defriended my brother on Facebook. Yes, she defriended her own twin brother because she couldn't handle the truth. That says a lot doesn't it?

Well this is probably my February Update. Maybe I will do another one this month, we shall see.

Yeap I am back LJ. I think I am going to start double posting my entries on blogger to here since some people (namely Mary hehe) don't have access to blogger.

We have just been getting an insane amount of snow here in New England. It's driving me freaking crazy!!! I swear we have had a major snow storm twice a week since New years! I don't even know when the next time I will see ground again! It is amazing how when we get 6 inches of snow New York City only gets rain and it is only an hour and half away from here.

I start school again next week. My schedule will be way lighter than normal, mostly because I am winding down and will soon be getting my teaching credentials (yay). They are starting a week late this year. I am not too thrilled about that, that means finals will be like the last full week of May. Seriously, what's up with that?

Oh, I joined a gym. I think it's high time I start shedding my winter coat (he he). I am going to try and coax my brother into going with me tomorrow so I have some company. This is the one and only time I wish my sister was home from school.

That's pretty much it, my break has pretty much been just me at home, work and out and about.

I would just like to see Obama and his people make some more thoughtful, and helpful decisons regarding this country. More specifically I would like him to restore our good standing with the international community, namely Europe.

I believe I am retiring this blog and replacing it with a new one on blogspot. My reasons for such are in the first post of the new blog which is located here:

http://kate7950.blogspot.com/

So it's been a good time LJ but I just think that things are better this way. Don't worry it's not you, it's me.

So for the last time...

Peace out...


P.S. Click on the ads on my new blog so a sista can make some cash ;)

Yes I do

So Ive been quite buisy the past few days/weeks doing school work, work work, and other extra curriculers in general.

So I had my interview with the city of Meriden last tuesday. It went ok. I dont think that it went as well as I would have liked though but what are you going to do. I do think that interning for them would give me alot of experience in what i might want to do when i graduate...but yeah we will see I am going to give hem a week before I start pursuing other options.


Thanksgiving was ehh. Same ol' family crap as it always is. My Aunt acting fake and making eeryone 'think' that she wants to be there when she doesn't. My younger cousins juist sitting their not saying anything and Mike being Mike. Becaue hes Mike :-). And of course having four weeks of leftover turkey. That is always my favorite part of the whole holiday is the exsessive turkey left over that we DONT NEED. Classic American over consuming.

umm I guess school is doing ok. I have a huge project due next week and a paper due next week too, he gave us an extention on that which I needed because I needed some time to just relax and think.

Oh and in classic Southern style, the library had a watermain break, screwing voer every last min person who needed to get journal articals for their 30 page paper. I say we sue the school for damages...they fuck up our grade because they cant hire a compitent construction company.

Well I have to go to class for the rest of the day I will return here...maybe.

Me

So I was on ratemyprofessor.com earlier and i came to this conclusion....



3/4 of the bad ratings that were given to teachers were by people who posted things like (and yes I am stealing what someone wrote on there):

"if your good at cheating and memorizing random countries all over the world..then youll do FANTASTIC in this class..if you like to sleep in and not go to a 2 hour class of a man talking about his son..then youll do horrible in this class as i did"



Hrmm GENIOUS OF COURSE YOU DIDNT DO WELL YOU NEVER WENT! you know most of these people on here dis not want to put in the work that was required of them to do in the class to pass...thats why they failed. I dont think they should be going around giving bad ratings to teachers like that when its on the baises of that they were lazy.



Many of the Geography professors I took who Myself and many otehrs I know thougth were easy and werent bad are getting bad raps because some kids who didnt want to put the effort in failed the class..



Its ridicules grow up assholes this isnt high school anymore.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?

So I would like to start this journal entry with announcing.....

IF NED LAMONT OR JOHN DESTEFANO WIN TODAY I WILL OFFICIALLY WITHDRAW MY CONNECTICUT CITIZENSHIP SINCE I DO NOT WANT TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH A GROUP OF PEOPLE THAT THINK THAT THESE TWO ASSHOLES WILL SOLVE CONNECTICUT'S PROBLEMS!!

With that said lets continue.

I got my SOC 310 midterm back and I got a 98....she gave us 1pt per essay for putting it in essay format....i'm sorry but is it just me or shouldn't by taking a 300 level course say that you can write in paragraphs and complete sentences and organize all your thoughts clearly and efficently? I think so....I took 100 level classes that assumed this....so what does that say about people who major in Sociology? Or maybe this says something about Southern students in general.

I also got my Land Use Planning test back...I got a 78 but then he add some points so I am somewhere in the B to B+ range....which is good since his test was tricky.


Well I think Alex Cora signed a deal with the Sox to play for 2 more years which is good.


Well thats it for today....and if you haven't yet already....GO OUT AND VOTE! There are people in Korea who would die to have the right to vote...in fact people DID die in this country to have teh right to vote...so respect your fore fathers and vote!

So as you probably have already guessed...I tend to only write in this thing when I am mad. So here I am again...

So I went to the mall yesterday with Sonia, and I was like hrmmm let me go get that money clip for my grandfather for christmas now before Things Remembered gets busy with orders and he leaves for Florida. So I go in there and we get no one helping us and the guy who took my order was a dumbass (a dumbass who goes to Southern and works at a bank as well...) So they told us it would be ready by 5:30 the next day.

Flash foward to 5:35 today...

So after picking up my movie from Marys and siting in traffic for 25min to get to the mall because god knows everyone and their mother was out tonight and just had to back up I95 (I fucking hate I95)...well I finally get to the mall and go in there and the guy remembers me (suprisingly)and he goes to get the money clip outta the back room. He comes back and opens it and was like hrmmm you wanted the initials WJM? And I was like yeah...and he goes hold on and goes to show the bitchy white girl in the corner who was doing NOTHING mind you instead of engraving orders. He comes back and is like yeah im sorry they messed up and blah blah blah...and while hes talkin to me I see what they fucked up the initials to and they put JLM instead of WJM for William James McDermott...HOW THE HELL DID THEY GET JLM FROM WJM? Someone tell me this how? How fucking dumb are these seasonal employees that they cant fucking get initials right...if it was a name I would understand but INITIALS, 3 god damn letters! Fucking christ and they werent even forienge! So when they told me to come back at 6 I was like no i have somewhere to be then they kept listing dates and I was like ill be back by wensday and left. If they were good employees they would have fixed the problem right then and there since the girl wasnt even doing any engraving to begin with! She could have done it right themn! Christ at the bank we take care of the problem right then and there. I can't stand it I really cant.


Well thats it for today I need to go study for some midterms. Peace out bitches.

So, I have come to the conclusion that many of these 'New Exciting Changes' occurring at Southern SUCK!!

Midterm grades posted on banner?? I think not....i would rather wait till just before withdrawal period ends to find out if I am flunking or not...I don't need to be stressing on how well I am doing in a class 10 weeks before finals...

More rules that my favorite professors have to follow...BULL SHIT! What ever happened to America's favorite Liberal state college? I like having my teachers teach like its 1969 in the midst of the Vietnam War...only now it is 2006 and the midst of the Iraq War ie Gulf War II.

Professionalism? CRAP The best thing about college is the lack of. I love it that my teachers come in and do whatever they want. It makes me want to come to class...

Also, I appreciate all the enthusiasim from the head hanchos on campus...but I can see through your bull shit...

Maybe I am just an angry student that is just upset that she has to take 2 important midterms on the same day because of this Midterm grade crap...or maybe I am just PMSing...who knows....


quote of the day: "Well, your sster is just an all around good student, she works hard...you and your brother on the other hand just have to work at it harder..." ~ My Mother...

Thank you mommy for so gracefully putting "Katie you are just stupid." My self esteme thanks you...

Thats it for today.... peace out bitches....

P.S. WTF is up with Panic! At the Disco's insainely long song titles...like were they bored and were like lets make all the song titles into one really long song....

Now that is really it...

Well fist off I would like to start this journal entry with a moment of silence for Cory Lidle a starting pitch for the New York Yankees who died today in a firery plane crash in NYC...as much as I dislike the Yankees no one should go out the way Lidle did today and such so yeah...









































Hope your striken them out in Heaven bro...

Yeah thats about as religious as I get lol.

So I had a meeting today with Dr. West about internships (not that it was much help or anything) but I think what I am going to do is quit my job at the bank and do my internshipp full time in the winter and such finnish it up in the spring and do what I gotta do in teh Spring to get the fuck out of this place...

So thus the theme of my journal entry...I need a miricle to get me through this year I really do.

So i have come to the conclusion that this semesters acedemic theme is Race....everything that i am studying this semester is somehow about race...its amazing I swear to god...

They came out with the course catalog for this year...so I think i will be taking GIS II, Middle East Geography, Woman in Society and well I think that is all I will be doing well I guess plus my internship and such so yeah...

I hope to god I get outta here in May....that will be a miricle im tellin you....I will like donate all my money to something if I do (dont quote me on that :-/)

Well that is it for today...I have to write some of my L paper on GENTRIFICATION (the redevelopment of low income housing/areas into more expensive properties that the previous income sector can no longer afford...for those of you who arent geography majors. :-P) I swear to god if White people would just stop incroching on low income peoples lively hood I wouldnt be forced to write this paper (well I shose the topic but still...).

Peace out bitches

So here I am updating the life of me (I wonif I could legally change my name to me? hrmm...)

So i have made a decision...I am going to actively start looking for another job...I can't keeping working at the bank anymore its too much I am too unhappy there and it is starting to conflict with my school work...which is #1 right now in my life...

So...the Red Sox didnt make it to the play offs...its ok though there is always next year...The Sox are still my favorite team but I am rootin that the Mets will take it all this year...they deserve it.

My debate on Wens SUCKED...*sigh* oh well what are you gonna do I tried...

Umm...went out last night with some people...


I think that is about it for right now kinda tired and kinda hungry so im gonna go get some lunch...

Peace out.

Im almost 100% convicned that every decision I have ever made in my 21 years of life has been a bad one. Looking back on thigs it seems that every major deliema I have come across and made a decision through has brought me to where I am today...extreamly unhappy with my life...and I dont know what to do...I really don't.

I don't like the person I am becomming. This person is a dark, bitchy, sad excuse of a person. It is someone who everyone hates and can't wait till they die kind of person. Ive tried several times to try and fix it and everytime it works for a bit then it goes back....I thought it was others around me that made me this way...and its not its me...all of it is me. I made myself this way...I have low self estem because of me, I am fat because of me, I am stupid because of me, I am ugly because of me, and I am single because of me. Everyone hates be because of me, no one loves me because of me. I feel like ive made more enemies in life then friends, more heartaches then love and more people cry then happy...including toward myself.

I don't know but I just feel so empty, like my whole life feels so empty that it has no purpose...no one to live for or anything to live doing. I don't think that I have ever in my whole life truely felt loved by someone...prolly because who can love me? Im an annoying, retarded, fat, ugly bitch of a person. Who wants that? No one has ever really truely ben able to understand me not even me (and I dont care if that sounded emo fuck you james).

I just don't know anymore...there is so many things I want to do, so many places I want to see, so many experiences I want to have...but I dont know if it will ever happen...

I just don't know...

I just dont know anymore...